Carmen’s Poetry Blog
Monday, January 10, 2011
A Wish For Sleep
A place between the darkness and the light
A place where nothing can come to haunt you
No pain, no memoirs of heartache
Haunting thoughts that won’t part from you
Never leaving you for a moment
But continuing their never ending siege on your defences
Breaking you down at every wall
Walls built up to secure your sanity
Sleep is the only sanctuary you have left to run to
But even that has left you alone to fight your battle
And now that you are defenceless against your enemies
You have resorted to allies of medications to help
But the sleep they offer is restless, not calming
They leave room for pain to enter, memories to flow in
They only give you enough rest to make it through until the next night
Then the payment increases to get the same return
The battle continues with no result
When will sleep return to cast her spell on me
Without a ransom note left at my bedside table
All I wish for is sleep to lie down with me
Comfort me; wrap her arms around me in her embrace
And we’ll leave my enemies behind at the door of darkness
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Rain
soul
remaining grit and grim that is left over from the night of dreams
depths of your soul
the depths that you put it in so many years ago
done to you
into the depths never to come out
slumber
creeps out
where you were once long ago
fight the demons of your soul
strength to keep the walls from cracking
need the darkness to be washed away
Words
leave, have never been there
despair
yourself worth
words
My Friend
together, played in the fields played on the swings
lot, and laughed a lot
older
like her a lot of times
bad I treated her, she was always good to me, she took me to places I thought I
would never go
weren’t sure, they said wait
stumbled, a tremble, a pain
I have to watch as she slowly deteriorate before my eyes, my friend and I always
had, my friend I never treated well
she feels as the disease slowly eats away at her nerves
years, now I am numb to hers
watch her go
will understand, that I cannot feel her pain, it is too great for me
doing to her one nerve at a time. I can’t stop this war against her, I can’t
help her
The Dance
We begin the dance as we always do
The same words, the same looks, he holds out his hand
I take the stand, the arms come around
The words are the same the thought begin
They come out, slowly to begin, he says tell me, tell me I need to know
I want to help, I’m here for you
But what I say, we have heard before
He angers, what you say, we have said before, you need to get over this, its your problem, we dance
The same words, I can’t dance with him again
He wants to help, but he doesn’t want to dance
He stops his dance, I’m left
He doesn’t understand that I can’t dance alone
I need to finish this dance, we need to, we need to finish, its not over
I need to work out the steps, the words, they sometimes need to be said over to me
Just like a dance, sometimes it takes time to learn the steps
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Between the Lines
Its scars have crisscrossed the surface, leaving a trail of darkness
I fall between the lines that no one sees
I talk, I smile
No one knows what goes on, between the lines
That’s where I live
The darkness that envelopes me at night, he thinks
He is my only love
He has seen me before, we have know each other for many years
I come into his arms, he welcomes me
His darkness is here for now, I need to fight him
I need the strength, or he will take me
He has tried before, I need to overcome
I need the light to come back
I will always have scars, I will always have heat breaks
That will crisscross the surface
My heart will heal with scars from years, I will heal
And the darkness must stay away
But he waits for me at night….